i feel bad.
im a asshole.
someone who tell someone that she will do something, and ending up not during it.

thats me.
i promise bby, i would remind him to have his lunch.
but i didnt. i feel asleep.
i cried, yes.
cause i feel like i neglect him.
and i've been doing this for a few days now.

for those of you who decide to take my side.
and start saying. u fell asleep whhaaatt?
my reply would be.
yeah, i did. but still. a promise is a promise.

i feel bad not reminding you.
i feel bad that i neglect you.
i feel bad cause im not a good girlfriend you think i am.
i feel bad making you upset.
i feel bad that things turn out this way.
i feel worst knowing its my fault.

im sorry.
thats all i can say.
reaaly am sorry bby.

Don't say what i want to hear, say the truth, you can tell me dear.
It wont hurt as much as the lies ive heard.
Ohh, that i fear.
&
Baby tell me…
Maybe I’m foolishly overreacting
But being without you I can’t imagine
It’s just to close to the heart
And I won’t stand it if were broken apart

im pissed off.
got my bloody period today.
and if i count correctly, im going to miss the first day of ramadam.
shit laaa.
and im piss because someone have been grumpy this pass days.
attitude? maybe? i donno laa.
but i sayang the person. :)
but ur making me real geramm. sooo.. i dono what to do.
i've tried everything i can do. nothing seem to works.
haiisshh.

had a heart to heart talk with a friend yesterday.
i cried.
=.=

school was hilarious as per normal.
thrusday be yourself day?
which means we can wear home clothes.
i already know what to wear, a-lyn and liza too.
bummer issss, have to pay 2dollars for donation.

i cant believe that im saying this,
but my school is getting 'cooler'
the played nice songs just now.
from sexyback to fall for you.
reminded me of bby, msg him still sleep and grumpy! -.-
slept during d&t cause the pain was unbearable. almost cried.

FUCK!
da laaa.
malas nak continue.
fucking pissed off.

bye bye . fuck.

like school was hilarious.
haha.
alot of dumb stuff happen.
got E8 for math.
HAHAHAHAHA!
=D

okay. picture time.
yeah. cam whore durinf recess time.
but got 2 picture only. lol.

happy birthday to kak dewi too. =D



okay.
here it is.

he makes me happy.
he give me those tingly feeling.
he made me sad.
he made me fall in love.
he made me laugh & cry.
yeah, he might have hurt me.
yeah, u guys might think he's a coward.
but all of this was part of the deal.
a deal i except 5 month back.
and there was no turning back. i would be a coward if i do.
see, we are all a coward in our way.
we just donno it yet.

i just wan to say i love hanan sooo much.
happy 5th anni bby.
i know i post about it just now.
just let me do what i wan okay.
bye

okay.
started blogging again. =D
cause i guess. its my birthday?
lol

i would like to like thank many many ppl.
-baby, hanan.
-a-lyn brace face.
-saidah jamaica
-ruhaini
-fadhil
-firdaus
-mak siah
-IBOOOO!
-kakak!
-mak itam
-mak busu
-pak busu
-kak nor
-kak min
-muhd zikri bin zainudin
-kak kina
-cik ita
-abg farhan
-shasa bell.
-alfian
-fazlina

& many more. hahah

anywaysss.
as usual saturday with cousin's
and yeah.
when clock strikes 12. 0laot of msges came in.
=D
and bby send me a msg. =D
sweet and long one too.
today is out anni uh!. haha =D

well, he is still very upset that we have yet to meet.
and yeah, your brain is probably fill with thought.
well, ur have the right to do sooo.
but here is what I think.
yeah, his gutless. but heellloo one of u guys should at least once feel like that
and no matter how manny ppl push u to do something, u just can bring yourself to do it.
yeah, but not for 5 months!!?
i dont care how long bby is going to take.
i really dont.
i love him and yeah. love is a strong thingy.
ahah. =D

i read his blog. touch my heart. =D
i donno how to make him better.
he seem so sad. and its sucks knowing that.
i cant let him go. i just cant.
okay. dont here bye. =D