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Sunday, November 30, 2008 !

Written on;8:15 PM

working has been .. exhausting!
and shit kepale pantat! thursday open house.
lagi mati tak nak siak.
the open house is where all starbucks all over singapore give away free drinks.
you name it we get it. :)
but the que? hmmm .. i dono what to say :)
patience is key ppl! haha.

i missed out on a lot of stuff ever since i start working.
i missed the grad day.
i missed going out with friends.
i missed out on whats happening to them all.
over with that.

all i know is.
i wanna watch wild child.
whats the worst thing?
i cant seem to get an off day on they day i wan.
get it?
i only get off day on the 5thdec, which happen to be my bro's bday?
ass, i didnt even ask for it.
damn it!
i wan to watch wild child
no dvd haram
i wan to watch the movie in the fucking movie theater, with popcorn and coke in hand.
faham?!

bby,
im lost for words for you.
you can just take away all the words i wanna say,
practically.. you have my word, heart and feelings too.
:)
i love you.
and please, watch movie with us . :)
im gonna be forceful one this. haha. :)

oh. bye ppl! :)
N results coming out soon.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 !

Written on;4:11 PM

MY WORLD.
aiman hanan
family
friends

Written on;1:31 PM

this horse caught my eye
cause it has a number 24 marking on its ass.
hahha.
i love the number 24.
sooo, i like uh

Written on;1:31 AM

work.
thats all im busy with now.
even though in between, i did think about us.
doesnt seem worth it now. i guess?
i dono nothing now.
:(

anyways, tomoro is faridah's chalet thingy.
and me, nur'thaqifah binte haron wont be going cause i have to work.
:)
my work dapat cpf okaaay. boleh beli rumah ohhh!
lets see, what else?
oh. haizad(the actor) came to the store just now.
hot stuff. haha. :)
my only off day for this week is friday?

working on the 27 sucks cause..
wild child is release. how unfair can life get?!
pfft~ im watching that movie i tell you.
anyone up for it? tell me aite.
hmmm.
i've not been eathing health this pass days.
i only have one meal a day. haha.
hopefully i can slim down like alot.
and be alot more confident of myself. :)
but heck, i can bloody fit into my sister's skirt and M size shirt.
i use to be an L. sooo, i have lose weight.
but i dont see it.
and met alot of vistarian and ex-vistarian at work today.
i'll be working at 5 untill 1230am tomoro but consider today already laaa.
you wont see my online i guess? maybe the petang part uh.
we'll see okay.

to you,
i still love you.
but u still wanted to let go.
i think its time too.
cause u've asked for it for about 4 times.
so, you want it.. well, you got it.
still friends right? haha. :)

but i still dont know the reason.

pfft~

doesnt matter i guess.

haha,

but if i have a choice, i need and wan you to stay

Written on;12:04 AM

thought that you you were stronger.
guess not. :(

let it go thaqifah. try too at least.

Monday, November 24, 2008 !

Written on;1:01 AM

HAPPY ANNI BBY!
our 8th 8th 8th 8th 8th 8th 8th 8th!
:)
still going strong kaaaaan?
im happy.
i've finally achieved something im really am proud of.
whats better? i've achieved it with someone i L-O-V-E.
and sooo,
i've send you 1 poem, 1 another anni msg and the other tak perlu msg. hahaha.
:)
i miss you and i love you aiman hanan rafi.
okay now lets go oman together. haha.
or or makan ice cream waffle.
lets go lets go letsy gooyy bby.

Sunday, November 23, 2008 !

Written on;11:51 AM

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight long as everythings alright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain

Written on;1:09 AM

wanted songs.

save you - simple plan
worthy of - justin timberlake
why does she stay - neyo

thats all for now
im dead beat
good night.
i love aiman hanan. :)

Friday, November 21, 2008 !

Written on;10:58 PM

nice question
wonderful answerr. haha.
watch till the end k!?
i have no life. stuck on youtube.
ask me out will you!?

Written on;10:02 PM

im sorry amalina.
im stealing him back.
and i swear he make me super out of breath.
AAAHHH!
did u saw him slide? i guess he was trying to dance.
and the very first part where he look up to look at the camera
my heart bloody stopped laaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
eventhough this song is like soo the basi in my library.
i still like it. ehhehe!
i love jesse mccartney since sec 1. ask karina! hahaha.
i love my aiman hanan more pbviously!

Written on;5:34 PM

forget bout the other post.
i guess im fine now?
and im tired.
i've been working for the last three days.
tomoro will be my last day of training
23rb bar test. (its a test every barista have to take to officially start working at starbucks)
im stressing out. its a test that i really really wanna pass.
and if i pass this test, chances of me passing n level very high.
LOL! not! -.-
getting my pay, next month.
pfft~ but nvm. haha. gettin it still kan kan kan!?
and and i already know what to buy this month.
i tell u k?
$50 - kasi ibu.
$100 or $50 - safe for dslr. (i'll try to get ayah to pay half half for the cam. heh!)
$29 - that bag.
$26 - prepaid! hahahahahahah!
if got balance? hmmm. makaaaaaaannnn!! haha
:)

and i miss aiman hanan.
i dono where he go.
is he angry?
i love you.
and oh bby,
im sorry for everything.
all those mistakes, mean-ess, and for being un-understanding
i love you alot.

okay.
shower.
back online.
sleep. :)
and since ibu ayah and boy will be gone for a few days.
no food.
and im to tired to cook.
okay byeee.

I LOVE AIMAN HANAN.

Thursday, November 20, 2008 !

Written on;10:48 PM

nothing.
no one will care reading anyways,
no will care bout what im going to talk bout.
no one will fucking care if i die tomoro!
thats it i've lost.
but i wont give up.
cause those who give up, is a fucking coward of them all!
and please do tell me if u decide to stop loving me or needing me in your life.
so i wont be a fucking idiot trying to make this work.
it hurta alot trying.
goodnight.

i love you.
3days

Wednesday, November 19, 2008 !

Written on;1:15 PM

too much depressing post uh?
ahha.
fine. something bubbly now, just like me.
:)
and lets see.
hmmm. yesterdaaaaay!
i was buying lunch. aleh2 got this ugly girl approach me.
hahhaa. no laaaa. it was nabilah and nats was there too.
:)
rindu.
oh before that. i was at work. doing theory lesson by myself.
then sekali this person masok.
i keep looking at him tellig myself i know him!
"he looks like aide iskandar' but i might be wrong ! ha
then sekali got another person masok.
fandi ahmad la babe. ahha.
both married. yet still hot looking. hha
and arif(partner) saw how i looked at them and he told me to make the drinks.
malu la fuck. haha.
but heck. over with that.

bby, rough patch uh?
we going through this. i promise.
:)
i love you. :)

i wan to go henderson wave.
jom ah jom! haha. :)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008 !

Written on;9:57 PM

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

You might fall. And I might cry
Cover the bruises
I refuse to let this tear apart our lives
Others talk, let them talk
Love isn’t easy but it’s worth it again you’re worth again

Hear me, I'm crying out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down, find me
I'm lost inside the crowd, it's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I'm restless and wild
I fall but I try
I need someone to understand
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby, I fought for all that I've got
Can you hear me

Monday, November 17, 2008 !

Written on;11:49 PM

I can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside

Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

Written on;10:25 PM

too much drama this pass days.
rather not elaborate.
working at starbucks is fun.
but making the drink part, stress a bit. cause we have to think whats in the drink all.
and if u guys think it easy? mistaken.
we have to deal with hot coffee shots. rushing to give it to customers asap.
and dealing with pretty weird customers.
but then again, seeing there smile upon receiving the drink makes my dayyy.
:)
nothing much to update bout.
the song on my blog u guys will start saying 'stop it saa qifah lagu gini!'
but i promise. u guys will get hooked!!!
hahah. eh kakak eeehhh!? :)
and bby, i love you.and no barons!

Sunday, November 16, 2008 !

Written on;12:51 PM

i wan this skirt look alike . can?
:)

Friday, November 14, 2008 !

Written on;1:32 PM

friends.

one of the reason that i breath.

now? all of us broken apart.

its sucks losing the people u opened up too, shared problem with, joked around with.

and sucks even more knowing that all the efford you put in to be friends with them is down the drain.

and its a total screw up that this is happening on the final year.

yes, we might not be best friends. but is it worth it losing a friend?

i dont think so.

i have a best friend. its not fun living of with just one friend.

i need the rest of u guys to brighten my life even more.

we aint good humans, we made mistakes. mistakes that we ourself dont see us doing.

im just trying to say.

i miss you guys, the whole bunch of us.

i hate the state that we are in.

i dono if this matter is ever going to settle down.

and i can only hope it will.

i miss the clique. the whole 4na malay girls.

Thursday, November 13, 2008 !

Written on;11:54 PM

lets see.
how was my day?
VERY EMOTIONAL!
it wasnt really a good day?
if some of u dont know, im on my training course thingy for starbucks coffee.
:)
so i have to travel all they way to commenwealth for the classes.
and it fucking far from my place.
my schedule said i have to attend class at 11 today.
so i when la kaaan.
then datang got to know the class only start at 6!
mcm nak terberak pon ada siaaaaaa!
then i drag my ass back. -.-

oh yeah.
had an arguement with sayang AGAIN today.
but wohooooooo!!!!!!!!!
its settled. i feel super relieve
i was crying like one mad fucker ! ask zeek. ahahahha. -.-
i like .. no no love they way we settled it today.
we practically talked things out.
every problem , one by one.
its helps.
he even ask me to shut up and not interupt on what he was going to say.
haha. :)
i love him more then everr now.

anywhooooo, working is great.
made friends.
debra, clair, jane and sophia.
friendly ppl i tell you.
especially that tall bugger~ eat non stop!
hahahaha.
sadly, all of us will be working at diff outlet.
except for me and sophia. :)
clair and jane m2. bra is at paragon?
tomoro will be the last training daaaayy!
wohooooo!
:)
hmmmm. i love starbucks even more noww. hahahah
wanna know why?
you get free food during the trainin. free food is what i dig okaaay.

i'll post properly next time or something.
or i'll just ask sayang to update for mee. hahahah :)
bye.
good night.

Written on;3:30 PM

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Everytime we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

Written on;3:22 PM

and if u think she's really nice.
ask her, what she did to my tag board.
what she said. ask.

Written on;3:05 PM

senang2 takde kawan pon baik.
:)
im happy with what the person im close too.
aiman hanan, make my world go round.
cousin make me feel belong.
zeek,the only friend i dont see like me arguing with.
secondary school friends?
i guess u're okay. pfft~ too much conflict.
im praying i will get out from that school asap.

things have been really shaky for us though bby.
cause im way to busy with work.
yeah , i know.
just hold on. dont let go.
never for a moment think that i've forgotten bout u.
i even use your name in one of my activity.
im sorry . *u said dont said that.
i'll try, i doono until when am i going to try.
but really, i dont see myself gving up on us.

okay bye.

Written on;12:20 AM

im sorry if my work is tearing us apart.
like i said. im trying.
and i mean it.
i'll try no to neglect you.
im sorry cause i couldnt be there for u just now.
god knows how much i wanted to be there.
my fault, cause i didnt fully charge my phone.
yes, maybe.. bby u will have to get use to this.
i know it sucks a whole lot. we gotta try.
this will make us a stronger couple bby, i promise.
you're probably asleep now and hoping tomoro will be a better day. *likeusaid.
i love you. dont give up on us please.
we can make this work.
stay strong.

and i hope u like the present i made for you.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008 !

Written on;1:47 PM

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY AIMAN HANAN.
19 uhh? soo old. aha.
i love you bby.
i'll tell what is in the card soon.
but not today.
im sorry.
i love you. bby.

Monday, November 10, 2008 !

Written on;9:38 PM

was pretty bored.
and bby, im okay. i swear. haha.

Written on;6:58 PM

QIFAH SPARKS says:
eh gua anytime ah siaaal.
QIFAH SPARKS says:
ntah nnti gua panggil lu turon. lu paitao gue.
QIFAH SPARKS says:
bueh ahh.
guardian angel says:
QIFAH SPARKS says:
ntah nnti gua panggil lu turon. lu paitao gue
guardian angel says:
lu paitao gue
guardian angel says:
eh
guardian angel says:
lu ade darah indon pe
QIFAH SPARKS says:
chibye
QIFAH SPARKS says:
lu asal sekrang nak spot mistake aku.
guardian angel says:
hahhaha
guardian angel says:
i cannot stop laughing
QIFAH SPARKS says:
same

i embaress my ass off.

Written on;6:08 PM

mcm aku kenal. u knoow?
im lazy to update la. bye

Sunday, November 9, 2008 !

Written on;7:47 PM

i wan this shirt. =D

Written on;5:55 PM

lets see.
woke up at 7 actually, received and sms
and since no one was awake. i sleep back uh.
then at 9 plus ibu woke us up.
i was first to mandi? i think. yeaah. i was.
hahaha.
and i was the first to siap too. :)
then the nasi lemak man datang. -.- then must go down and buy.
but worth it ahhh! saw omar the kid. cuteeeee!
then balik, kakak was still in the shower.
ibu memekak! -.- *biasabiasajugak.
yadaaayadaaaa.
then went out.
to where? why so early?
kite ramai2 pegi zoological gadern . :)
wasnt that excited laaaa.
they only thing that can be found there are animals and human.
and my dad's company need to be creative la please.
zoo zoo bird park bird park -.-
is that the only 2 places u thing that is like family friendly?
eehhh helloo! sentosa iss too family friendly place. so, please next year, at sentosa please.
hahahahhaha!

was pretty excited when da sampai.

oh oh oh!
then moment we reach there, we went to see the monkeys.
ohh yes yes. not cute. -.-
alot of animals la kaaan we go see.
and if u're wondering why i update very abit kemelayuan. its because i lazy to update uh.
ni bored nye pasal uh and also cause baru balik dari west side. hahahah.

not that i look down on the west side ppl. =D

*peace! brother2 sister2 joy2 member2 ypyp otot.
and soooooo, highlights of the day.
got to ride on an ELEPHANT! gerekkkk. i've been wanting to ride on it since like,
the amazing race episod, where they have to mandi kan the elephant.
=D
and and the water roller.
funnnn!!!!

its like tube thingy, human inside, floating on water, run run inside like hamster.
okaaay. brief explanation.
later when the photo inside the computer i update.
now, no have.

okay bye.

Friday, November 7, 2008 !

Written on;6:25 PM

and sooo.
N level is like way over kan?
now must aim kehadapan. :)
soooo, had nothing better to do.
'spam' the ite website and state down all the course,
which i tink got harapan to masok. hahah

here it goesss.
oh yeaaah! it in like order.
the one i die die nak masok.
oh yeaaah. the first choice i wan, i dont think go harapan.
but still first choice ahhhh.

~DIGITAL AUDIO & VIDEO PRODUCTION (amk or simei)
~DIGITAL ANIMATION (macpherson)
~PRODUCT DESIGN ( bishan )
~PRECISION ENGINEERING AEROSPACE (balestier)
~SERVICE SKILL TOURISM (clementi)
~SERVICE SKILL RETAIL (bb, simei, clementi)
~INFO-COM TECHNOLOGY (bedok, amk)
~SECURITY TECHNOLOGY (dover, balastier)
~FITNESS TRAINING ( clementi)

okay bye.
=D

Written on;4:50 PM

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

Written on;3:21 PM

be supirse.

i went to school. and tak cabot half way.

but i think initially misran wanted me to cabot with him again.

he left 2 missed call. haha.

im sorry la dude! tak rase mode gegaran. haah

sooooo, stayed in school.

didnt study much. haha.

and yay! last day of school, like officially.

in class talk bout hi - tea most of the time.

excited.

but bummer, i might not be going. :(

caaauuusssee.

i will still be on training for my job.

which is at commenwealth (west side bby! haha)

soooo, im afraid that will be clashy or something.

sucky laaaaaaaa.

tssssskkk!!

anyhooooo,

not going no where today.

and im like cash-less. mood-less.

ohhhh! just finish web caming with mr.zulkarnaen!

hahaha. creative la kan tu mat reeep.

i took a picture .

shall update later or somethingg.

and i haven hang out with him for a very looonngg time.

and i feel like my blog song is depressing yet beautiful.

everytime i hear it i will like get really sad. haha

shall change it to something else soon. =D

okay bye now.

bby, where are you?

Thursday, November 6, 2008 !

Written on;5:27 PM

mood swings.
all of the sudden i feel like,
i've fail life.
living my life, i've fail.
i dont get myself sometimes.
everything seem perfect the other second.
then something happen.
now, i feel like crap.
i feel like letting it all go.
and i dono what i wan to let go.
but obviously, not the good things i have right now.
but right now, even the great things in life is bad.

theres is never a logicial explaination for these mood swings i have
i know other ppl might have this mood swings too.
but, i dont get it.
i wanna know what is making me upset.
i feel it, but i dono what is making me feel this way.
cant figure.
one way to escape this is.
sleep.
bye.

Written on;4:19 PM

and sooooo.
another day another post.
i;ve writen something in my diary,
so its my bloggy turn.
my day was fun uh. ahhaa
when to school at 7 plus.
i wasnt late. like wohooo!
soo, first 2 hr was d&t.
had to draw and draw and draw.
hahahahah! and god and karina know how bad it was!
bby! teach me how to draw nice nice so i can pass my i next year.
caan caan?
=D
oh yeaaahh!
during assembly misran sat beside me out of the blue and ask
'eh kau kol 10 bla tak?'
hahaha, they way he said it like he know i was going to go off at that time.
i was like 'a'ah' i wasnt feeling well anways.
lets see what else.
oh yeaaaaahhhh!
after that headed to macd for a lil while.
breakfast and all.
then balik. =D
here i am now.

seriously, i need and activity to do siaaa.
my butt is getting bigger sitting infront of the comp 24/7
but heeeyyy! i dont mind.
got company maaahhh.
and yeaaah!
i've changed skin. both on fs and blogger.
and my diary got an new ink pen too.
and now, im looking for a dress online to wear it to grad hi-tea.
=D

bye bye now.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008 !

Written on;7:42 PM

probably the only song i like from pcd. hahah.
my day was okaay?
woke up at 7? yes yes.
headed to school and did the paper.
i was super sleepy for the first ppr.
during recess talk to amalyn. :)
your strong. and u got what he wans, soo he will come back.
the sucky part is, you gotta wait. *sigh.
second paper was kinda a breeze except the last question.
taik! penulis penulis penulis! -.-
after school head home straight!
baik kan ake?
biasa biasa jugak
at home?
sleep was feeling sick-ish. better now.
satuday, anyone heading for DXO?
i know karina is going so is azneil and joe.
me? i shall see. =D
and i've been eating alot this few days.
fuck myself hard. so much for nak losinf 5 kg thaqifah! pfftt~
and yay! obama dude.

i go now.
byebye.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008 !

Written on;7:53 PM

my job interview.
yeahh, i got a job!
starbucksss! =D
training will start soon.
you can find me working at compass starbucks in a few weeks time.
=D
my manager's name is joy.
she's nice and she love my smile.
=D

that pretty much was my day.
things worked out for me and bby.
and met liza'a mummy otw home.
oh yeaah, had to wait for 1 hour for joy to come.
and worth the wait. got the job and a free drink. =D
and let seee.
ohh liza's mummy said amalyn was at her crib and she was sad?
bitch, what happen? i'll get to you soon okay dearest.
:)
till then stay strong.

i'll be off.
bye.

Written on;11:03 AM

What Your Love of Gummi Bears Says About You

You are a total goofball. You can't help but be silly most of the time.

In your opinion, life is way too short to be taken all that seriously.

You love playing pranks and telling jokes. You live to make people laugh.

You the type most likely to play with your food before you eat it.

What Does Your Favorite Candy Say About You?

Written on;11:01 AM

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%

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Monday, November 3, 2008 !

Written on;8:43 PM

can i be apart of your family little dude?
yes , i love your 'man'.

Written on;7:13 PM

my day was G-R-E-A-T!!!!!!!!!!!
cabot sekolah.
came home. no one home.
stuck outsidee like no liferrr.
then go compass waste time with amalina and liza and .....
hahhaha. no one. *ouch i know.
giler ah giler spend time with them.
hungry now.

and bby.
dont leave. :)

And I can't think of anybody else.
Who I hate to miss.
As much as I hate missing you.
Months going strong now.
And no goodbye.
Unconditional, unoriginal.
Always by my side.
Meant to be together.
Meant for no one but each other.
You love me, I love you harder.

p.s/ im sorry.